The final countdown

Well it's my last week at work. Holy crap, this is so lame, they are actually expecting us to work. Do they realized they fired us? Now I have to admit some people here have been done working since we were told they were letting us go, but not me. I wanted to train them and make sure my accounts were well taken care of. Fast forward five months and I am so sick of this place I could scream. Granted I still want my group accounts to be taken care of, I have made some close personal relationships with some of them. However, after telling the Washington staff the same things over and over and over and over and over (I can keep going), I am plain worn out. It doesn't matter how hard I try they are never going to get it, my groups are screwed and I just want the hell out of here. The truth is they have too much on their plate to retain half of the stuff I tell them. Well that's what notes are for people. Oh that's right they don't know how to do that properly. Well I made excellent notes, read those, or are your eyes broken too? They have no sense of time management, in fact I am sure they don't even know what that term means. Anyway I digress... My point is in 3.10 days I am out of here! Then the real work begins.

As you all know, I am not getting a job, I have chosen to stay home with my kids. I am going to be blatantly honest, that scares the sh*t out of me. I am a very organized, motivated person, oh yeah and I love numbers. Not 1-20, complicated shit, I love accounting. I know where every penny of my money goes (a little less while intoxicated, I will admit). In fact I watch our money so close I think Kyle secretly stashes cash when he deposits paycheck so he doesn't have to deal with me! That's fine, I don't care, cause I don't want to have to give him money to buy tools and ruin the Jeep! I digress again.....

There are so many things I worry about. What if I hate it, what if they drive me crazy, what if we can't afford it, what if my lack of income screws up the house refinance in September, what if I loose motivation in life and I stop getting ready and don't know what day of the week it is? If I doesn't work out, I have lost a completely awesome baby sitter, I can never replace Polly. She is a super women, who my kids absolutely adore, not to mention she is completely affordable. If it doesn't work out, and I have to return to the work force, I (or Kyle) will have to get a second job just to pay for childcare, because it is going to cost so much more then we are paying Polly. Are these legitimate concerns, do other moms feel this way, do I hate my kids?

No, I love my kids, which is why I am choosing to stay home. I want them to have the best environment possible, I want to walk them to school in the morning and walk them home in the afternoon. However, I am really worried about supplemental income. Without my income we are out $300 a month, which doesn't sound like a lot, but that is our grocery bill or our gas expense. Also will I be spending more money while I bored, will I end up at the mall twice a week? Also we are going to have crappy insurance, that is also going to cost us more a month. So we are really out upwards of $600 a month. How do I adjust to life in a household that is now living paycheck to paycheck, scraping every penny to make it to the next pay day? Well I have to figure out some sort of supplemental income. So I really want to watch other peoples kids, but the whole point of me staying home is so that I can take my kids to activities. I have to take and pick up Ethan three days a week from school, and Paxton once. Also I want to go to the gym while they are at school. So 1. If I do that then when will I go to the gym (Kyle works 7-6) 2. I have to find some one that will let me drag their kids all over town 3. I will be stuck at home. Well I can't do call center work because of my loud kids, so that's out. I could do data entry but good luck finding an opening. So who knows. I guess we play it by ear and hope that I don't completely screw up our lives.

Check out my Bday Slide Show!

My birthday

K, here they are the infamous birthday pics. We had so much fun even though a bunch of people totally dogged out and didn't show up. We played beer pong and just hung out and talked. The highlight of the evening was when we played the "bag game". We stole this idea from some Mini owners, Candy and Mike. They have this huge military duffel bag filled with all kinds of different clothes. Well they were unable to make it so we had to improvise with stuff me and Stef had around the house. It is basically like hot potato. Someone is in charge of the music (in our case it was Ethan), you pass this bag full of clothes around the circle and when the music stops you have to pull and item out of the bag, with out looking. If you choose not to wear the item correctly you have to pull out two items in it's place (no one does this!). Taking your clothes off is not required, but I give big props to Dan and Pedro for making the night a complete blast!! Thanks to everyone that made it and to all of you that didn't... you SUCK! but I still love you.
P.S There are a ton more pics, my goal this weekend is to figure out how to make a slide show!

Boring week!

So I started this silly thing a few days ago and have since been at a loss for words. I can not think of one single thing to post. I want to post my bday pics but I have to do that at home, and it turns out I have absolutley no free time while I am there. At work is a different story. My whole department got laid off so as we transition everything over to an out of state office there is less and less stuff for me to do while I am here. We were all so sick last week (I only worked two days) and I think my kids are finally starting to feel better. I am the sickest one now, I hate having to breath through my mouth at night. My tongue gets all dehydrated and I can't taste anything. We aren't doing anything for Valentine's day, well that I am aware of at least. Kyle isn't much of a surprise kind of guy, so I am sure we aren't doing anything. We are so lame when it comes to that kind of stuff. We make sure our kids have a good time on the holidays but when it comes to us we just don't have any energy left over, I guess. Well hopefully there will be some exciting pics of my bday to look at soon! Hopefully tonight. I really hope that starting in March when I am a stay at home mom that this will stay interesting.

P.S. If anyone knows of a felxible work from home job that would be great.

Finally

Well I finally did it, I have finally set up a blog so friends and family can keep in touch with our lives. More to come!